Ada Kalanya

   Lately, I go to bed right after pray Isha' at 8 pm and then wake up at midnight. It's for nothing but all the stuffs you call PAPER. Right, now I'm truly the college student. Going to the campus early at 7 am, finishing all the course until 5 pm, having a workgroup or meeting until Isha', going to bed, wake up at midnight, and paper-ing. How tiring, but I enjoy it much. At least, I won't let my mind go down for some reason. Well, unimportant reason, that shouldn't be in my mind.

   And these days, I have been stuck with K-Drama that Fitria has been given to me. At first, it seemed so indescribable, confusing. But, after I "eat" all of the story, I was amazed. Another K-Drama that has made me a little... well, you know kinda girl's stuff, lol. If he knows about this thing, he will absolutely scold me, errr.

   The title is Answer Me 1997, maybe some of you recognize it. The story is about a flashback of 5 best friends when they were still in high school in 1997. A lot of things have happened in their high school life. Friendship, family, love. Until they finally reunite in 2012 and memorize all the things they have done.  

   I was a bit hypnotized by the story, and also it woke me up. Well, all those high school stories that sometimes made me bringing back the memory, are just a story. As time pass, we are getting old all the time. That now my age is not young anymore, made me realize: what have I done in my young life? I feel like I've done nothing but just fulfilling my own egos. About friendship, what have I done to all my friends? Am I still thinking about them, saying hello, or even keep contacting? About family, have I made my parents smiling? Or laughing? or made them proud? What did I reach for them? What did I stand for them? About my love... have I done the right thing now? Have I found someone that is absolutely the best for my life? Is he the right person? Have I found love?

   Until I got a news from my high school friend. I was so surprised once I heard it. Then, it woke me up once more, that I'm not again young. Another 10 years of maturity has waited for me, and filled by new stories about life.  I mean real life. In less than one/two years, I'll face job worlds, "Where do you got the job?" or those kind of "When will you get married?" questions maybe will be my daily questions, not only for me but also for people around me. Then, I'll get the marriage invitations of my friends, hear the news from them that they will have babies, etc. Twenties is about maturity.

   I'm not that ready for all of them. For some reason, I understand how people really loves their teenage moments. It's really pure and beautiful. You learn everything about life in teenage, then you'll face the real one in the twenties. It's a synergy from the universe, you can't control as you please. It really wakes me up. Now I'm facing the real one that is almost so hard to bear. I truly wake up, that life's never as easy as K-Drama or something.

   Ada kalanya kita belajar, ada kalanya kita dilepas untuk terbang mandiri.

   Ada kalanya kita bersembunyi di balik dinding, ada kalanya kita bergerak maju.

   

   Semua itu ada waktunya. Dan ini waktu kita untuk terbang bebas sendiri.